will it ever happen?

11:21 am - no fun?

ok my life is complete
most amazing time of my life last night watching iggy pop and the stooges
i was so happy i had a huge grin on my face the entire time
and tears welling in my eyes
it was so good
i dont know what to say
iggy is god
i want to do it all over again
forever and ever
amen iggy

Current Mood: ecstatic

12:46 pm - HAHAH

dudes i just read all my old entries
i am such a loser
how do i bury this thing

Current Mood: nostalgic

07:13 pm - goodbye jes, have fun in margaret river!

it was don delillo, whiskey neat,
and a blinking midnight clock
speakers on a tv stand, just a turntable to watch
when the smoke came out our mouths
on all those hooded sweatshirt walks
you were a stroke of luck
we were a goldmine and they gutted us

and from the sidelines
you see me run
until i’m out of breath
living the good life
i left for dead
the sorrowful midwest
well i did my best
to keep my head

it was grass stained jeans and incompletes
and a girl from class to touch
but you think about yourself too much
and you ruin who you love
well all these claims at consciousness
my stray dog freedom
let’s have a nice clean cut
like a bag we buy and divvy up

and from the sidelines
i see you run
until you're out of breath.
and all those white lines that sped us up
we hurry to our death
well i lagged behind
so you got ahead

Current Mood: blank

10:20 pm - i dont know

Now when you're feelin' low
And the fish won't bite
You need a little bit o' soul
To put you right
You gotta make like you
Wanna kneel and pray
And then a little bit o' soul
Will come your way

Now when your girl has gone
And you're broke in two
You need a little bit o' soul
To see you through
And when you raise the roof
With you rock and roll
You'll get a lot more kicks
With a little bit o' soul

And if your party falls
'Cause there's nobody groovin'
A little bit o' soul and
It really starts movin', yeah!

Now when you're in a mess
And you feel like cryin'
Just remember this little
Song of mine
And as you walk through life
Tryin' to reach your goal
Remember what I say 'bout
A little bit o' soul

And if your party falls
'Cause there's nobody groovin'
A little bit o' soul and
It really starts movin', yeah!
A little bit o' soul
A little bit o' soul
A little bit o' soul

Current Mood: high

06:30 pm - so me and garth are over

Oh, how I cannot bear the thought of you
I said, oh, how I cannot bear the thought of you

As we get old, we lose our place
Reflecting back the world's disgrace
I feel so low, I feel so humble
Sometimes in life we take a tumble
Don't let anybody tell you that you're no good
Cause you know they would
Don't let anybody tell you what you should do
Cause it's not that way and...

Oh, how I cannot bear the thought of you
I said, oh, how I cannot bear the thought of you
We were young and we were pure
And life was just an open door
I said oh, oh, how I cannot bear the thought of you

You were me and I was you
This world of ours it felt brand new
You took me a little further...
I heard it all before, I've heard it all before
I can't hear it anymore
Your hair was long, your eyes was blue
Guess what I'm gonna do to you

Oh, how I cannot bear the thought of you
I said, oh, how I cannot bear the thought of you
We were young and we were pure
And life was just an open door
I said oh, oh, how I cannot bear the thought...
Oh, how I cannot bear the thought of you
I said oh, oh, how I cannot bear the thought of you

Current Mood: sick

06:06 pm - its hopeless and i know this

well people this is a goodbye from me! i dont have the internet anymore so you probably wont see anymore of me! if you wanna send me an email tho that would be cool but otherwise.. ! we moved in to our new house a couple of days ago.. loz ill call you soon about bond. as for me im super hap. got sum fun chrissie pressies. and im so glad that thats all over and done with. i feel your pain guys. lets hear it for the end of christmas! still with garth.. 7 months now. my move to the eastern states has had to be postponed due to me spending all my savings on the move. so.. ill see you round. xx. corgan.

01:01 am - keep on saying im weird keep on saying im in love keep on saying im a fool

so i dont really update anymore huh. thats cos i dont really go on the net anymore. i dont have time. i dont have time for much really. which is strange because i dont really accomplish much either. id like to be doing a lot more than i am. and i apologise to people who i should probably be seeing more of. its not that i dont care. im just out of control really. or under control? no.. neither of those are true. i dont know.

so simone is moving back to london. she sent me quite an amusing simone-esque email. it was a fun one. and she said altho she'd love to do the house thing she fears she may be gone again by febuary for her heart now lies in the plump skies of london. i totally support her decision. it just leaves me clueless as to how i will be able to pull off a move to melbourne alone.

so we've also come to the end of our lease at loftus and are currently in search of a new location for our sharehouse. we're after something a little more up market. i must say we seem to be making some rather nice progress. its come down to 3 beautiful houses of varying locations but i wont reveal any details as yet. all i can say is the only residents will be euan jes chad and i. we're not looking for places with any extra room. its just too much to look after if we're all working every day of the week. and i mean come on. we do like to party. all i know is we are going to need to have one hell of a garage sale to get rid of all the crap in this place.

happy birthday again to paul and jessie. i love you guys. goodnight for now and ill have another update for you next year. ;)

Current Mood: awake

03:07 pm - if there was only something between us

how crap is the internet!

SNORING!!!

Current Mood: amused

02:46 pm - this business is killing me

my head hurts
really
really
hurts
and i am so exhausted
i might just
sigh..

Current Mood: nauseated

04:02 pm - gabba gabba hey

the white stripes were great! i mean it was full of braindead skinhead bush-bogan losers but the performances by the bands i liked. especially meg singing. then we went to pink and i was a bit out of it heh. but it was fun fun. and garth came too and hes the best. i had to get up at 6am to go to work today.. my god it was horrible. but now im home and im waitin for paul to come over and for chad to get back from the pool so we can buy beer! beer good. and just to clear up the vicious rumours bree has been spreading about jb hifi.. there are plenty of iggy pop cds there i went yesterday! i even picked up iggy pop - soldier for only 9.99! cool huh. anyway i best be getting back to the fuckload of dishes we have sitting on our bench. they just never end!!! i want the kath and kim dvd.

Current Mood: exhausted

12:07 am - 21

im twenty one.

and my foot is itchy.

in other news, chad has moved in, my internet account has ended, and the laundry is clean. now wheres my boyfriend?..

06:22 pm - im sure its good to be alone

well well. this last week has been a blur of money drugs faggots fairs booze buffy pubs parks sex goodbyes bleached hair blue hair green hair purple hair bad trip boyfriend happiness sadness market equity messy rooms more drugs crazy rides galaxy fireworks freebies posters and no money. its been great overall.. but its on the downer side at the mo. i gotta work tomoz 9am too which isnt good. anyways ill make a more specific update later maybe.

to anyone who hasnt seen this god awful pic from fairday..

Current Mood: anxious

12:15 am - !!!! back it up boys..

oh yes. good news has arrived. PEACHES! THE STROKES! DANDY WARHOLS! i think i might just explode! i cant believe how good the big day out is going to be!!!!! but i need to calm down. meanwhile i dont think i can handle another night of hardcore drinking.. but it feels so wrong to not drink on a saturday night doesnt it? and then theres fair day.. *sigh* its a hard life. paul thankyou for the blondie cd i love it!!!!

10:44 pm - like a hobo sailor does

S-A-T-U-R-D-A-Y HEY! HEY! saturday night! saturday night! and im at home. :( i gotta work tomoz morn so i cant make it out tonite.. soz guys!! work went fast today. which is good. hopefully tomoz will be the same. last nite i rearranged my room.. (god im boring) but now it looks good i think.. its a bit weird. but only cos i was so used to it the way it was before.. i dont think its as comf anymore or sumfin. i dunno. so yeh here i am sippin on sum red and smokin a dart before i crash ni ni and talk real estate tomoz. hope ur partys super fun jo. its my birthday in 23 days! 21 woo im an adult member of society. you listen to me now! i really wanna see garth but hes gone on sum super dumb friend binge. we've role reversed. now its me that always wants to see him and hes always hangin with his mates. that was ME before! what happened fuckerrrs!!! ah well.. he'll be back.. and for now i have 9am starts and amys pie leftovers. next week i hear its pink for laneys goin away partay. hope you will all be nothing like me and actually attend a gathering. see you all there. lots of love and bob dylan sing-along. corgan.

Current Mood: thirsty

11:04 pm - im watching you sinking

well working again is good.. but working with a hangover again.. not good. actually who am i kidding working is bad full stop. working all weekend too.. *gromble* tonight me and ames made sum super yum spaghetti bol and watched miss polly jean on the entertainment box. what a cutie she is.. those big muff eyebrows.. that slicked back grease mat.. and her sexy lingerie. rowr. elena i think you need to quit surveys qa.. work is so much easier when youre there!! pink last night was rather amusing.. have i already updated about that? i think i might have made a drunk post.. ah just ignore me. im listening to the stone roses because amy is a nick cave wart hog. is it too much to ask for a little boatmans call every now and then?! is it! huh! i miss my boy. i cant wait til tomorrow! and on another note.. beware the high heels ladies. oh my god my legs gone numb! ahhh~! help!!!

Current Mood: numb

11:53 am - generating heat!

well mandurah was awesome. i had such a hillarious weekend. thursday night we got pissed and hung out at the unit and went down the jetty and generally acted like drunkards but everyone piked on me that night so it wasnt the best. friday jes and i went to the city and had such a funny day. highlights included the sushi lady, about 20 70 year old women doing a dance performance to 'you cant stop the music, nobody can stop the music!' haha!!!!, the burnt down pub and fag-o lets go, the $80 salad, our mussell collection experience and the delicious fine dining we enjoyed that night.. saturday we went opshopping and to the markets and then to the king carnival mandurah fair. then we cleaned up and got ready for our last big night on the town. we drank every drop of alcohol we had and i was so smashed.. then we went to some dodgy mandurah club and it was hillarious!! we were all dancing like absolute dicks, euan did a fine performance to 'thank god im a country boy' and me and jes were practically fucking on the dancefloor and got told to tone it down.. this fat lady told us we were great and she wishes she could dance like us and that we should be mazzad. then we went to the old burnt down pub again before being chased by this hillybilly gang of skinheads who wanted to beat us up for being faggots. it was great!! we got to bed as the sun came up!

last night went to freo to see my boy. we wet and saw sum bands at the swan basement. gazoonga attack and front end loader.. they were alrite but i was pretty buggered.

i really need to call work.. elena is there any work going?? clive called me on the w/e but my phone died!!

hope you all had a great w/e and i'll see you all soooon!!!!! :D

Current Mood: exanimate

09:26 pm - dont call me balmik.

a picture-book of my life at the mo.



p.s if anyone tells garth about my livejournal they are DEAD.

08:12 pm - oh, fuck off.

01:09 pm - now i am a real sickie

i have barely left the bed since saturday night. i have been so fucking sick.. ridiculously sick! and i havent been able to sleep either because ive been in too much pain.. its been horrible!!!! i havent even had a ciggarette since saturday night either! thats how devoted i am to getting better but it just doesnt seem to be working!!!! why me! WHYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!! i missed out on the pop party, saturday nite at the basement, and all sorts.. plus i have absolutely no libido!!!! but garth has still stuck by me and stayed with me every night hes such a sweetie. he falls asleep and i spend the entire night watching tv or watching him sleep or punching my legs or watching every single video i own. this is no life for me. i want a change and i want it now! please please please let me be all better by tomorrow!!!!

Current Mood: sick

09:38 pm - mama says, you only fall in love once.

people are really frustrating me at the moment. not anyone in particular.. just people in general. and not everyone! its just like.. theyre all fucking stupid bastards who need their heads knocked around with one of those big ball and chain demolition trucks. its just lots of things in particular.. like strangers being cunts for no reason. or people giving me dirty looks when i walk by. or fuckers who think they can slap my ass. or people who are total bitches one minute and then turn around all rosey the next with their prepared little sob story on the cruelty of the world. i mean fuck you get what you give people. and then theres us lucky people who have this great love and they just fucking underestimate it. take it for granted or whatever. i mean if youve got it dont fucking test it. dont test yourself and dont fucking test your partner. if you believe it then fucking believe it because they dont need your shit. and youre not gonna get an official confirmation letter in the mail when you snog three boys and still end up with a poor naive pouting little fool to lick your ass and clean your kitchen. why waste your time. theres people who love you who would love that time. meanwhile, fucking clive has changed my shifts AGAIN. i would have worked ONE shift this entire fortnight. im fucked! its a good thing i just hired out rock n roll highschool cos riff randell certainly wont piss me off. love and poison.

Current Mood: chipper